Traceys Blog

Wow, it’s been a while since I posted.  Well a lot has happened in the last month and a half.  First of all, I was laid off from my job on May 15th after working for the company for 4.5 years.  It was tough at first, I was mad and sad all at the same time.  Even though I was looking for a job for the last month or so before getting laid off.  But for some reason it still hit me a bit hard.  I was then forced to find a new job.  When I was looking before that, there was something stopping me from finding one.  I think it was because I felt as though I would leave the company hanging so to speak if I left.  It all worked out great though, I told myself that I would find a job by the end of May and low and behold I had an interview on May 28th and was offered the job on May 29th, started June 1st.  I really enjoy my new job. There are plenty of new opportunities and learning with this new company.

On to another note.  June 2nd was my 6 month marker for quitting smoking!!!!!! YAY ME .  I am very proud of myself.  There is no going back now.  I hit a pretty stressful moment in my life with losing the job and I did not resort to smoking to ease that stress.

The weight thing has come to a halt for a short time, but I will be getting back to Aqua Fit within the month. I will start walking more often as well.  With my new job I have stopped going out for lunch.  My lunch break is an hour so I will start walking on my lunch break. I will try to make it a 1/2 hour walk each day when I can.

I will try an post at least twice a week from now on, but no promises.

Well today I have officially been smoke free for 3 months. Yay me. I am very proud of myself. There were a few people that doubted me and said that they didn’t think that I could do. Well guess what? I DID IT It was pretty hard at the beginning. I still kinda think about it at times. I don’t react on the thought but it sometimes goes through my head. But I just put it aside and think of something else. I have some people in my life to thank for the awesome support they gave me. You no who you are and thanks!!! Anyways, I will report back to you at the 6th month marker. It will just be a post saying that I have completed 6 months

Today is day 28 of not smoking.  Yay me.  January 2nd will be one month woo hoo.  My Christmas was pretty good this year.  The 24th was spent with some really close friends and the 25th I spent with my family.  It was a pretty small Christmas this year as all of my family was up north in Prince George.  My youngest nephew was in Texas for the holidays.  But all was good.  Very relaxing.  We had lots of snow this year.  My yard had about 2.5 feet or maybe more in it but it started to rain so now it’s melting but there is still quite a bit.  I love the snow  it does not bother me to have it, it just bothers me to see people who can’t drive in normal weather try to drive in the snow.  Just stay off the roads if you feel you are scared to drive or have not really experienced snow driving.  But I guess everyone has to learn sometime.

Well yesterday was my 30th birthday and the 3 week marker of being a non smoker!!!! Yay me.  So now my new goal in the new year is to lose some weight and get healthier.  I am going to start some aqua fit classes in January.  I was suppose to start them along time ago but never did, this time I will.  It is not as expensive as a gym membership and I think I will enjoy this much better than going to the gym.  I may start going to the gym at a later date, but my first step is going to be the aqua fit classes.  I can’t believe that there is only 2 more days till Christmas and 1.5 weeks before 2009.  This year seems like it has gone by really fast.  Any ways will update later.

Well today is day 11 of me being a non smoker.  I feel pretty good.  It is getting easier and easier each day to not think about smoking at all.  There are still some times that I think that I should be smoking.  Just certain points of the day when usually I would be smoking.  So far in 11 days I think that I have probably save about $40 to $50 bucks.  Which is a good thing.  People are asking me what I am gonna do with the money that I am not spending on smoking.  I think for now I will use it towards my debt.  I will also start putting some money away maybe I can save enough to go on a trip in the summer

Well today is day seven of not smoking.  One week yay for me   I have been told that I am not quitting smoking anymore but I am now a non smoker.  It feels really good.  I have had my moments but dealt with them without having a cigarette.  I am very proud of myself.  I did this without any form of substitutes of any kind, just all by myself and of course with the help of my friends with their great support.  Thanks Guys!!!  I said that I wanted to be done with smoking by the time I hit 30 and that is on the 22nd of this month, so I can say that I accomplished that.  Now in the new year I will work on my weight.  Hey if I can quit smoking I can lose weight.  I have quit an addiction that is very hard for all people.

Yay me I am now on day three of not smoking.  It is getting easier.  I do notice myself getting snappy sometimes but as soon as I notice I try to change my attitude or apologize to who ever it was that I was snappy with.  That’s the nice way to say it lol…I am very proud of myself right now.  A Lot of people are telling me that the hardest part of quitting is almost over.  I think so too.  I am feeling better.  One weird thing about is that I really enjoyed having a coffee and a cigarette together in the mornings but this morning when I was having my coffee it tasted kinda bad to me, I don’t no if maybe I actually do not like coffee? I will try again tomorrow morning and see if it still tastes a bit off, maybe it was just the one I had today.  I can definalety agree with people who have stopped smoking and say that they can taste their food better now because I can taste a difference with some things.  Like oranges and cheese of all things.  Well today is almost over and tomorrow I will be on day for.  Will let everyone no how it is going tomorrow!!

So today is day two of not smoking.  Last night I had one puff of my  moms smoke and it made me so dizzy and I felt like crap after.  So that turned me off of it.  It is hard to quit but not as hard as I thought it would be.  The craving is not what I find hard its the fact that now I don’t no what to do with the time that I actually spent smoking.  Like for example, in the mornings.  I mentioned yesterday that I always have a smoke in the morning when I am getting ready, now when I am getting ready I don’t have that smoke and it throws me off a bit.  So I think the addiction is not my problem it’s the habit and the daily routines that I have that are associated with smoking.  The hardest times are in the morning and after meals.  Last night I just occupied my mind with some TV.  It’s a bit hard because my family smokes.  But I think that I am doing very good so far.  I have been trying not to replace the habit with food, I have been eating a bit but today I brought some oranges to work with me so this morning when I wanted a smoke I ate an orange.  I’ve also been chewing gum.  Well my work day is almost over so now I just have to tough it out at home.  I will post tomorrow on how I am doing.

Well as I mentioned yesterday, today is officially my first non smoking day.  So far so good.  I have not had any smokes today.  It is actually pretty tough.  I can feel myself getting irritated really easy.  I can tell that some of the people around me can see it too.  One of my co-workers asked me how it was going after lunch, since he has worked with me for 4 years and knows that I always have a smoke after I eat he was wondering how I was feeling.  I told him that I can feel myself getting bitchy and he said oh well, if I am bitchy, I am bitchy.  It’s for a good cause.  I think that if I can make it until Friday without smoking that I will be OK.  I am afraid of gaining weight, I already struggle with my weight issues.  Oh well I guess it’s either one or the other.  Lose weight or quit smoking, I think the quit smoking is the best option at the moment.  It is the more unhealthy one out of the 2.  Well that’s it for now.  I will post again tomorrow to say how I am doing.

So I have decided that today will be my last day of smoking.  Tomorrow will be my first non smoking day.  I have decided to try the cold turkey thing.  Every morning when I get up I start off my day by showering then I have a cigarette.  Tomorrow morning after I have showered I will not have that smoke before getting ready.  I am really going to try this time.  I hope it will work.  One of the things that I am going to try to help me is every time that I feel like smoking I will just write a post, maybe that will help take my mind off of wanting that cigarette.  So be warned there may be a lot of posting going on for the next few weeks